I keep trying to post an update on here, but it seems life has taken over :)
Its been a difficult few weeks. I've had a little bit of a hard time physically... I'm just trying to take it one day at a time.
I had a pretty intense revelation today.
I have had this overwhelming sense of guilt because I'm not exactly enjoying every moment of being pregnant. I find myself terrified most days. I'm either in bed, or praying I can get to my bed soon. I've been in the hospital twice, mostly just because of minor complications the doctors want to keep an eye on because I'm considered a "high risk pregnancy".
I really only find my comfort in the sense of peace that finds its way deep in my spirit. Sometimes I feel like its so hidden its hard to see. But at any rate, I'm so grateful, because deep down, I know its deep down.
Its true, from the moment you discover that there is a life growing inside you, you are OVERWHELMED.
Andrew says it best... I've over heard him say quite a few times that I'm carrying his love child. This baby could not be loved more. And the love we feel for him/her keeps growing and growing and growing...
So this is love... la la la la.
